Thinking..... questioning..... pondering....
What is the meaning of life? My thoughts infect my mind, Like a plague, eating away at my mind. I sabotage myself, a prisoner in my soul My heart burns, longs to be free. Why do I fall? Why does it hurt? This I do not know. So many questions I will never understand. But how do I move on? How do I wade through the debre? Every step I take, I falter Question my own self My heart aches, yearns to be heard. I am swallowed up by my own thoughts. I was thinking tonight, about a lot of things. I usually do. It’s almost impossible to get my head to shut up. I was trying to figure out why? Why am I in this mess. Why did this happen to me? Why can’t I ‘snap out of it’? Why does it feel like no one understands? Why do I get hurt? As if this wasn’t mentally draining enough, I was also trying to figure out who? what? how? etc. So many muddles thoughts, and to be honest, I don’t think any of my questions were answered or explained,