Nope, it’s not


Does it have to be alright all the time?
The name of my blog is called it is not alright.
That’s the main point. 
That’s all I can say today. 
No motivational speech or deep thoughts.
It’s just not alright.
But I will survive
I will continue
I will keep fighting
I will win

I will...... because I choose to. 

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